Cheap

- I sent him message on facebook.
- What?
- I told him “Happy to see you on facebook, I’d like to add you ….
- This is unbelievable.
- I did what I felt, you know I’m attracted to him, cannot take him out of my mind, whenever I met someone I wish it is him.
- The guy is a lair, remember when I met him and he told me that he never been to “edde sands” although you both spent a whole day over there. What is so attracting in such a lair?
- He is so sexy, I’m like the mosquito flies towards the light to its destiny, I know it is worthless and he is not interested in me, but I’m so into him.
- You gave him the chance to reject you, and who knows such a person can do? He might show your message to his friends telling them fake stories about you. He might say that you have been tracing him for a long time and you never stop calling him over phone. Victimizing himself pointing you as an obsessive sinner. In our community, rumors invade the city in no time especially a story like his. You will find many reactions vary from group to another. Some might shows it by giving you straight eye contact will hit you like hidden bullets penetrating your body killing you without a drop of blood or a single word. Others will be like the sponge; they will absorb it all, will hide and will not show it unless you communicate. But the most dangerous will be those who use the rumor to show off building fake stories, like a gum you will be in their outings and parties, they are professionals truth will never be clear to anyone even for yourself.
- ….. I acted normal… I did not want to add him before asking him, plus I …
- Such an ego person like him will never reply to your message, for him you are someone he met two years ago and never stop flirting around from time to time. For him you are a cheap girl always initiating contact.
- ….
- “dear you are a kind person, you think all people are as good as you are, but this gives people advantage over you” could not reach your receipt as he/she is offline.

An Hour

She went out of the lap hiding her shaking legs after they took a blood sample and told her to pass over after an hour to know the result. She did not know where to go, or what to do in this whole hour. Walking to her car, she saw three women in black, going into a church, it is not a prayer time, she sneaked her eyes through the door, and she noticed that there is a funeral inside. She jogged away from the church as if she is running from death, she felt it is a sign, she is going to die, and the analysis will be positive. She hardly opened the car’s door and threw herself over the driving wheel, with non blinking eyes she stared to nothing and started to think. Her life was too short even if her age says the opposite, she will be isolated away from her family and friends, and she will lose her job, her career, and the more precious thing her life. For the first time in her life, she doesn’t care what people might think or say about her. He found her mind blocked, she can’t think can’t drive; she stepped out from the still opened door and sit on the pavement on the parking. Her car was the only one in the line; she noticed the burned lamp in the street light opposite to her car, the dry leaves over the tree in summer time, all these were signs. Soon her life will reach to an end; hospitals will be here home and medicine will never stop.

Time is moving deadly slow, surprisingly she usually complained from it running out but the hour is not getting to an end. Knelling on her hands, she stands up, closes the door of her car and started to walk back slowly to the lap. The funeral is going out of the church the time she is passing, her eyes freeze at the coffin, she imagined herself dead and in the same coffin in few months. She went into the church with all the prayers and vows she knows her lips interpreted what the mind dictates. With a heart full of faith and mind looking for hope, she left the church continuing her way to the lab. Hiding her shaking legs with a cold face, sugar coating her fear by a plastic, she entered the lap. Like war drums her heart kept beating whenever the door of the lap open, ten minutes passed like a day long while she waiting in the reception, till the nurse came out holding the result sheet in her hand with a calm voice she said “Negative”.

Dream

Her close friend and she accidentally saw him last night; he was sitting few tables away with his friends. Her close friend knows all his friends, reacting normal he wanted to say “hi”. Subconsciously, she found herself asking him not to go, and speechless when asked for the reason.

Five months ago, in her eyes, he was the perfect person She dream of, he was everything in her life, She could not imagine a day pass without looking into his eyes. She spends long time meditating in front of his photos in the few days they could not meet.

Now, she knows that her crush blinded her, causing her enormous emotions and pain. He was like a mountain she kept climbing for a long time and when she reached its tip, she realized that its a rocky mountain has no soil to plant. All the rocks she stepped over in her way up were not an enough sign; her mind was blocked letting her heart to lead.