Turn Page

Now, I have to wait for some time, out of respect for others to take their time and space as they respected mine. I have no choice although I dislike that, and I expect no good out of it. By then, it is important to take the turn page decision to stop bleeding. I have to take a deep breath and a short but effective break to forget all about this experience. It was one of my very few loss-loss experience, I lost a close friend and a very good potential partner. I have to straggle again, but this time, I should be more picky than before. I learnt the hard way, I should never drop a sign. I have to choose a better paper material and fixable ink to last for longer time than the one I just turned. Bye C and M.

Bleeding

This is the main issue I’m currently facing concerning my friendship. C turned to be like M, more or less, he cares more about himself, I always felt that with signs that shows how meaningless I am for him but this time I have clear evidence. This was very hard for me to accept although I was prepared yet I’m in denial. Both C and M invaded my privacy and gave themselves the right to uncover my secrets to people either whom they love or believe they are close for them. Prices were always paid by me. I feel like bleeding to death, and I wish to die. May be then, I will find the life I want to live away from all fake things and these who wounded me deeply. One day I will disappear and no one will be able to reach me.

Toy

People are taking over my life, Parents are pushing me to what they see the best for me, planning and designing my life style. Intimate friends and enemies are really confusing me, both uncovered my secret without prior notice; I’m confused. I keep a distance from my enemies, but I cannot keep it from my close friends. Both of them unveiled me according to “circumstances”; is this an excuse? I’m tired of the life that I have no control over it, my life is owned by others, they are all directing it. I feel, I’m like a plastic toy in a fake world, that people are playing with and enjoying their game. My heart is broken, my soul is bleeding and my face is faking a smile. C A M L E.