Bleeding

This is the main issue I’m currently facing concerning my friendship. C turned to be like M, more or less, he cares more about himself, I always felt that with signs that shows how meaningless I am for him but this time I have clear evidence. This was very hard for me to accept although I was prepared yet I’m in denial. Both C and M invaded my privacy and gave themselves the right to uncover my secrets to people either whom they love or believe they are close for them. Prices were always paid by me. I feel like bleeding to death, and I wish to die. May be then, I will find the life I want to live away from all fake things and these who wounded me deeply. One day I will disappear and no one will be able to reach me.