This is not the life I’m looking for, am I going to find the proper love ever? He left with no coming back. I knew it from day one, from the first kiss, from the first hug, that he is not the one I have been waiting for. He got the career, the decency, the care, the wealth but misses love. I’m single again, lonely, with nothing to give but a smiley face hiding my sense of grieve.