POT

What can I do when I ran out of tears?

Shall I keep crying with no tears? Shall I stop crying? Shall I weep?

OR

Shall I start thinking of how fool am I?

If everything is happening for a reason … what’s the reason?

If god always keep the good for me … Where is the good?

and, If my days are running and my good years are reaching to an end …. When will the good come?

I don’t know but I have to believe, there is no choice in world I have been forced to come and torched to live.

I have to believe in the reason, in the good that exists and will come, that’s why I keep throwing my hopes and dreams in any land I cross by without considering the soil. I cannot judge soil before testing it. Yet, I’m tried from having the bad soils all the time.

I wish to have at least a small pot with suitable soil, where I will plant one bean and guard it for good.

Letter.

To: Someone who will never have the chance to read this (with no access to this blog).

My Dear,
It is very hard for me to accept that you left me. I know I came out to you when it is too late. After long thoughts, hesitations and fears of commitment. When I decided to speak it load, I lost you. I always knew that you are the perfect one. I had the sense to feel your heart beats through your text messages. I used to know your mood from your hairstyle, from your nails color and before all from your eyes. I took your love for granted. It is the famous mistake of all ages where regression has nothing to heal.

To tell you the truth, something inside me kept preventing from proposing while I was sure that your answer will be “I DO”. I needed my time; days, months and even years ran before telling how much I want you, how much I need you and how precious you are for me. Time spoiled it all, yet it is me who gave it the chance to happen.

Is it your faith? Is it my destiny? We both prayed to god for our relation to grow, yet it was aborted. Is it god? Is it the best? As a believer I have to agree, you were too good for me.

Yet, I'm sure; our relation is engraved in our memories; none of us will be able neither to erase nor to forget. You will have your new life and I will dig my unpaved way. I wish when we meet at any time of the life cross roads, to see you happy or at least to see your genuine smile guarded by your warm eyes.

Goodbye my lover and see you around as friend.

M. A.

Reach Peace

When you are down, tired from expectations, and you cannot stop yourself,
When you do good things to people you love even before they ask,
When you do an effort knowing their taste,
But they don’t do the same, while you expect they do.
But the fact is they either don’t fell you or don’t care or might even don’t bother to go out of their way to know.
Moreover, they accuse you of being over expecting person and that you don’t differentiate things.
They push you to reach the fact that you are the one who is mixing cards and you start to believe them.
Until you hear a sound comes from the back to interrupt the flow by inquiring:
“Since when did we differentiate? Or is it the way people use these days to escape from facing things?”
It is hard to prove people wrong, but it is easy to see them crystal clear in hard times.
At this time, I have nothing to do but let my tears flow down and erase them from your life.
I wish others can see the world from my eyes and not being selfish enough by criticizing and showing how stupid things are.
Few are those who reaches the peace of acceptance and understanding. I wish to reach there one day.

Unveil

Only tonight the mask was unveiled, after years of telling lies, she knew the fact he was hiding, and figured out what was it is all about. She loved him, she didn’t see his selfishness, his arrogance and his shallow personality. It is very true that Love is blind, it was new for her strong character to know that love converted her to a weak person. Her love made him took advantage of her in many occasions over years. It is not easy to get him out of her blood, even if it hurts, but she should. He should have no place in her heart anymore, she doesn’t care if he noticed her suffering, but she cares more for getting him out of her life. She doesn’t care if he regrets losing her one day, it matters nothing for her, she cares rebuilding herself again.

Farewell

That was beyond my imagination. He was not as reliable as I thought, he cares for himself the most, he barely check on me, he care only for his stories telling and how funny guy he is. When I have hard times, he shushes me, even more he says "I'm calling you to make me Laugh, not to make me down, Go Now, I'm not in the mood".

One time when I could not stop my nerve, he complained and accused me of being aggressive and very rude. I actually were so, But I needed a friend to understand, others did what he gave up so easy.

“I will be comfortable this way” this phrase came to end a very special friendship and placed full stop when it was time to.

I’m thankful to god that I had him in my life in the first place.

Good Bye H.

Desert Roses

She knows it is not her place, she wants to leave. None of the surroundings can be with any good for her.

she remembers the old days, were not as good as she used to see, there were always black spots she used to see them as desert roses.

Ice Cream

Started by an ice cream, long eye contact, smile, napkin, talk and a date. Fast but tasty.

To Live.

She prefers to live with her pain than living with someone she can not trust anymore.

Risky

Nothing risky than having a Nationality without a country, fighting for your surviving, your family, your lover, your home, your liberty, and your believes. Revolution came to highlight things she used to feel but could not prove.