“I can understand your silence, I can feel your grief, but I was totally frank with you, I didn't hide anything. I know you are shocked, I can see your disturbance, and this situation is not a traditional one. Yet, it is now your choice now, I beg you to take time before deciding, and be sure that if you accept me the way I am, I would be the happiest man for having you with me for the rest of my life"
With these words Khaled ended his hour and half phone call with Maha, the call in which her running tears were only her reply. The call in which Khaled confessed his love to her and how he could not imagine his coming life without her. She was shocked from his sharp words, his straight way in handling the whole situation, and how he had logical explanation in which he used to defend his views before she even argue through. Her widely open eyes showed that her mind was in a state of disorder , trying to understand the whole situation.
It was not easy for Khaled to come out to Maha, telling her almost everything about himself and sharing his secrets that he barely talks about to anyone. Not only was he risking losing Maha by telling her what he did, but also losing his reputation and respect among all their common friends and may be his family as well. For Khaled, this call was a true moment with him, one of the very few ones that he ever had. With mixed feelings after hanging up with Maha, Khaled was extremely happy for sharing his secrets and was heavily afraid she won't be able to handle what he told her.
“I’m fed up with walking alone in the middle of the road; I wish you could be my partner. The others will always be guests, but it always is you who will last”
These words among all were the most painful ones. She felt offended; does she look like a one who can accept this thing? Being an open minded character accepting the others views and differences does not mean she can accept him the way he is. It doesn’t give him the right to underestimate her manners or her pride as girl.
Khaled saw in her the girl of his dream, the outgoing and cultured who has exposed much kind of experiences. Maha is the only one he met who can be his partner, she is very smart, sexy, and always looking forward to be unique in everything. If she did not find one to compete with, she would go to compete with herself, especially when it comes to breaking borders.
Maha was brought up to reject things that are prohibited by ethics and religion. The idea of open marriage never crossed her mind, or thought she will be offered. Her mind went to extreme once as being a second wife, but was repealed instantly. She could not accept the idea of sharing a man with another woman. Her husband should be only hers, all the love and care has to be for one person. She cannot accept being a small part of someone’s life while he is the only part of hers. She might be watching TV or going for shopping while he is sleeping with someone else. It is very painful for her to accept that she is not enough for the one she loves, and that he will always need others. What could be those needs? How can he judge her before …..? If she is all what he wants in a woman as he told her, why isn’t she enough?
He told her that he tried many times to be with only one at a time, but he never succeeded. He cannot dedicate himself only one, it is against his nature, he has desires and interests that Maha cannot satisfy. Having an open marriage will give him the opportunity to keep Maha in his life, she will be his partner, and they can make a family and have kids. He won’t have to hide and seek every time when he is with someone. He will be an open book for her to read at anytime. He won’t be like other husbands who have their secret lives. Maha is his love, his wife, the one whom he cares for the most; the others will be just to fulfill the other needs.
“You are the one whom I love, the one I will spend my honey moon with in a romantic city by the sea. The only one I imagine myself cooking for in your late pregnancy period, and burning the food as I am a terrible cook. The one whom I would always be hers”
His words kept echoing in her ears pushed by her beating heart through a narrow way to her mind, these words were touching her heart very deep. it was weird;. It was exactly her own image of her future husband! these words were hers, she remembered telling them to her close friend Ayman years ago. With long non blinking eyes, Maha started thinking of how did Khaled know these words although he doesn’t know Ayman?
No comments:
Post a Comment